Eleanor, I think you have had one too many G and T’s..

I’ve been in bed most of the weekend.
The sun has finally been showing her face these days, but I haven’t been outside much to feel the warmth. Only for a sigarette now and then. I’ve been covered in bedsheets. Hidden in a room filled with movies and music.

I watched a couple of really amazing ones.
The one standing out most is ‘Black Swan’.
I know its been out in cinema’s some time in the states already,
but i’ll describe the movie to those who haven’t seen it anyway.

‘Black Swan’ is about 28 year old Nina , who has been pushed into becoming a ballerina by her mom, who gave up her own carriere to have Nina, whom she was pregnant with. Nina gets the leadrole in a play, as the swanqueen. In this play she has to play the white swan, who is light and delicate, and also the black swan, who is dark and sensual and dangerous. She is the perfect innocent white swan, but has problems placing herself in the role of the black swan. She has to let go of controll to get in the role, and stop trying to be perfect and delicate. In this process, she gets really confused with herself, her identity, people around her and her youth, and she loses herself in stress, confusion, hallucinations and schizofrenia.
She becomes more and more the black swan without being able to stop it.

The movie had a huge impact on me.
Who ever came up with this story, has digged so deep into the psychological world of scitzophrenia and fears, that it’s hard for me to dismiss the thought of that person having experienced it himself. Its incredible how realistic it’s been filmed and directed.
After the movie, I was sort of caught in the intire vibe the movie was covered in. I felt really weird, artistic, scared and sort of not myself. I know that sounds strange, but I’m sure that anyone who sees this movie will feel the same.
Captured by the Swan.

Another less dramatic movie I loved, was Match Point.

”Chris Wilton is a former tennis pro, looking to find work as an instructor. He meets Tom Hewett, a well-off pretty boy. Tom’s sister Chloe falls in love with Chris but Chris has his eyes on Tom’s fiancée, the luscious Nola. Both Chris and Nola know it’s wrong but what could be more right than love? Chris tries to juggle both women but at some point, he must choose between them.”

After reading the storyline, I thought: Cheesy happy-end love story.

But the storyline is being a little sneeky.
The plot kept changing, and a lot of things happened that I didnt see coming.
The movie turns from innocent into strange and sort of frightening.

I liked it a lot.
And I LOVED the soundtrack that kept coming back.



Match Point’s intro quote:

The man who sayd ”I’d rather be lucky than good”  saw deeply into life. People are afraid to face how great a part of life is dependent on luck. It’s scary to think so much is out of ones control. There are moments on a match when the ball hits the top of the net, and for a split second, in can go either forward or fall back. With a little luck, it goes forward, and you win. Or maybe it doesnt, and you lose.

Wilhelm Scream

Tayfun told me the funniest thing.
Did you know, that hollywood has a little inside joke toward all us movieviewers?
A movie director came to his school for a workshop, and told the class
a little something called the ‘Wilhelm Scream”.

It’s a stock sound effect, first used in the movie ‘Distant drums’ in 1951. 
Named after the Character that first used it.
By now, it’s been used in almost 300 movies, and no one knows it!
Not unless you’ve heard it and recoqnize it.
Its so funny.



Mr. Potter

I dont know what to say.
I loved every minute of it, as always, but I’m also always pissed off a little when the end titles appear, as always.
I think I always want more, and feel unsatisfied after a HP movie. especially after the last two.
And the make out scene between naked harry and hermiony was really disturbing.
But it was great. Great acting, great emotions and amazing tense.

I'm in my bedroom right now.
In the livingroom are my roommate and a friend of mine.
The orange haired one.
I’m not sure what to think about her anymore.
I only know her for a few weeks. She’s originally a friend of Marit’s and she’s a bit troubled. Her parents kicked her out, and she had no place to go, so she stayed with me a few weeks. I didn't even know her when I told Marit that I’d rather have her sleeping in my place than out on the street. She was really sweet at first, but she’s starting to get on my nerves.
And her feet seriously horribly smell. bad.

Nienke, Marit, Lotte, Stefan @ Catwalk Rotterdam

It’s unbelievable how much can happen in one night and day.

I don’t even know where to start.

It’s one big chaos of old crushes contacting me, fights with new ones, drama and more drama. Im so exhausted.
Honestly, I want to bundle them all up, and dump them in the middle of the northpole with lots of icebears. I’m so tired of them not knowing what they want. And even more tired of myself, not capable of closure to any of them.
They will always be able to mess with me, confuse me and hurt me. And they do.
Its hard for me to shut down feelings once I felt them for someone.

Sometimes I feel like I’m a small creature trying to be eaten by eagles. One caught me once, lifted me up, but lets me fall. another catches me falling down, out of the sky, lifts me high, but drops me again. They keep tossing me around, and eventhough I can try to fight them, prevent hurt, I’ll only risk falling all the way down.

I know it sounds weird, but its the only way that comes close to desribing the feeling.

I’m sorry, I don’t even know how I got from Harry Potter to this.
I’m a little locked up, and need a let-out atm.

Its best if I’d try to get some sleep. its 03:50 AM already.

I promise to write an optimistic next blog. ;)

Time

You never guess what has happened to me this night!! Normally, each and every schoolday, my alarm clock goes off at 6 ‘o clock.. Quite early, but I’m used to it for almost 6 years now (so I just have to except it :p)..

This night, however, I appeared to have set the alarm at the wrong time without noticing.. So this is what happened: 

Alarm rinckles at 3 ‘o clock.

(Dumbass) Marit thinks: “Ah! it’s morning!”, so she goes downstairs, makes herself breakfast and drinks two cups of coffee, cause she’s feeling pretty tired (yeah, strange...) 

Then her eye falls at the clock in the kitchen and she realizes that it’s the middle of the night..

Thanks to the coffee she’s quit restless and can’t get her eyes closed anymore….
What a very exciting beginning of the day! :)

But I did watch a good movie now, haha

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