GOLDENACES

woensdag 5 januari 2011

NYE costume party.

News update.. The fire is too big to handle, so the firefighters decided to foam it down. Which means a huge smoke curtain will cover our town (and much more). Which meansss we still can’t leave for who knows how long.
The toxic smoke hurts your skin and eyes.
The trains are shut down, the harbours are closed, and the roads are closed down.
I secretly sniffed the air outside to see if it smells weird. And it totally smells like burned plastic. This is really serious!!

So, since I have time to spare now, I’ll put on some of my NYE adventure pics!
It was a costume party, and Ty and me went as Rapunzel and Flynn.
The party was in the penthouse of Damar in Amsterdam, which was an awesome location.
We first celebrated the night in Rotterdam with my roommate and friends, and then went to Amsterdam around 00:40.
(in the pictures, i’ve already took off my pink dress because it was too warm)
It was amazing, though I only remember the first half of the night.
I have never seen so much champagne in my life.
But it was sooo much fun!!

FIRE IN THE HOLE!!

SO, today was a weird day.

My dad woke me up by throwing a glass of water on top of me for starters.
After I screamed and called him names, he told me he couldn’t wake me. I didn’t respond to anything. I wonder if its true, or if he was just in a crazy mood.

Anyways, I went to a store to get myself a new bed and new closets, and headed to my grandma after that.
I love her, but its always a sort of forced family thing.
Sit in front of eachother, drink tea, and talk about school, plans and everything thats not a taboe.

After a little while, I really wanted to go, because I was craving a sigarette, and I had my stomach full of tea and shallow talk.
The moment I’m putting on my coat, I hear from the TV: blabla.. Dordrecht and surroundings to STAY INSIDE and close windows and doors immidiately. Im like, wtf? So we all bundle up close to the TV, and witness a huge fire.
It appeared that the chemical factory in Moerdijk (next to Dordrecht) was going up in flames, spreading toxic smoke all over the south of holland, starting with Dordrecht and Strijen.
While the nerdy reporter was standing close to the fire, warning us dutchies, a sudden (small) explosion caught him off guard. He pulled a panic face and threw himself on the ground. So funny and unnessecary.

So I looked outside the window, and saw thick brownish smoke hanging over our houses.
We heard the sirens warning people of danger. Kind of exciting.
But I ended up staying there for 6 hours..

Then my grandpa brought me home, both covered in shawls to prevent breathing in the toxic. I kinda love the little action thats finally happening in our boring little land.

But I still haven’t been able to smoke a sigarette! that would be double deadly.

So now, i’m sitting on the coutch in my parents livingroom.
My sisters and brother in law are here, because their house is right in the middle of it all.
We’re all crashing here.

I really want to blog more.
I have so much pictures piling up that I want to post, but since we’re all stuck inside, waiting for more news on the toxic smoke, my parents insist on making this a cosy family thing. I’m so not in the mood, but i’ll get over myself and try to make this doable for all of us...

maandag 3 januari 2011

Wilhelm Scream

Tayfun told me the funniest thing.
Did you know, that hollywood has a little inside joke toward all us movieviewers?
A movie director came to his school for a workshop, and told the class
a little something called the ‘Wilhelm Scream”.

It’s a stock sound effect, first used in the movie ‘Distant drums’ in 1951.
Named after the Character that first used it.
By now, it’s been used in almost 300 movies, and no one knows it!
Not unless you’ve heard it and recoqnize it.
Its so funny.

Tale as old as time

While walking through Utrecht yesterday, I came across a (closed) windowdisplay of a farmacie.

Beauty and the Beast IRL!!!

I loved it.
I forwarded this to Laurens immidiately. He’s a friend of mine who I always randomly talk about Disney a lot with. We met by discussing beauty and the beast stuff, so I thought, let’s remind him! Since we haven’t talked in a while.

Laurens

I miss the lovely innocent days where the scary witches and beasts from the disney movies were the only things to worry about in a day. The days of climbing trees and rollplays with friends on the streets. The times where dressing up like indians or pirates was still cute and not weird, haha.

Hello World!

It’s been so long since I blogged that I feel like I have to introduce myself again.
But I’m not going to (:

I’d like to tell you why I haven’t been around the internet a lot, but it’s personal, and since our blog is no longer anonymous, I’ll just say that things haven’t been going too well.
I didn’t feel like being in contact with anyone, and sort of isolated myself for a few weeks.

But things are going a little better, and I thought I’d update everyone on some things.

First of all, I’m trying this new medication called Venlafaxine Retard. What a name.
Its a stronger version of prozac, which should help me be a little happier soon.
But when you first start taking them, you’ll feel worse for a few weeks.
And thats the phase i’m going through as we speak.

I’m suffering from really annoying headaches, dizzyness and exhaustion.
Every little thing feels like a huge efford.
I feel lazy and boring, but know that I just have to get through this.

Today is a grey day. It’s cold, cloudy, and rain is falling.
I never saw this sort of rain. It’s not frozen to snow, but it isn’t water either.
It sounds and feels like sand falling down.

I’m waiting for Ali, a friend of Tayfun and me.
He’s coming over to drop off some pictures I made at a party he organised, to edit them and put the logo in them. I’ll post them later.

He was supposed to be here around 12, but it’s 13:12 already, so I’m wondering if he’s gonna make it at all.

Gosh, I don’t even know where to begin with updating.
I have so much to tell you, about NYE, about random things I ran into, about dreams I had…

I feel that the thing that I need to shake out of my fingers the most, is Faith.

I tried to sort everything out meself the last couple of years, without interferance from above. A few days ago, I started praying. I was desperate and emotional, and tried to picture my life. I started off thanking Him for all the blessing in my life, and ended up in tears, because I just can’t seem to get all it together. I’ve lost controll of so much things.
So I tried to imagine my life as an ocean, me being a ship. I could see myself behind the wheel, driving it up against the rocks. Scared, but also too tired to try to turn the wheel. I prayed for help, wanting strenght to be able to turn the wheel myself. But then I felt like I needed to step down, and get away from the intire wheel. Like I just needed to sit down comfortably and relax. God took over, and the wheel started turning with a huge force, driving it away from the cliffs it was heading for. I could see this all clearly. I thought I was imagining it all, and tried to imagine the ship sailing to a safe harbour, a beautifull island with a setting sun and palmtrees. But I couldn’t.. controll the things I saw, and in stead of what I imagined, the ship lifted up from the water, glowing bright. It lifted up, and headed for the sky. The sky was a darkblue/purple colour, filled with more stars than I could have imagined.
It floated through the stars and was completely free.

I told Him I would let Him do the sailing from now on.
And though I’m tired, I feel so much better since.

Puha!

I recently came across a newly opened shop in Utrecht.

The name of the shop is Puha. They sell clothes for men and woman which is made by young Dutch designers.

I really like the shop, all clothes are really unique, there wasn’t one single piece of clothing which was similiar of something else I saw in another shop.

Among the designers are:

Studio JUX, Fenny Faber, HIXsept, Heidi Long, Les Queues de Sardines, Studio RUIG, Snagt, Monique Poolmans, Roparosa, Neurotica, Alter & Kiss, Nutty Tarts, Satara.. and more..

(About two years ago I did some modelling for one of these designers, it’s funny to find yourself back in the store)